4/24/15

Folie á Deux

I walk into my bedroom 
I feel the chill rush through my veins
I feel my stomach twist knots
I see my reflection in the mirror
And I saw someone I could not recognize.
And I saw nothing but the figure of a failure.
I try to fix the mess I’ve made
I try to fix the mess I’ve made
But I failed. 

I take out the rope from my last camping trip.
I take out the knife from my front pocket.
I set up the rope like from my last attempt.
I graze its sharp edges on my fingertips.
I see the rope as my only salvation.
I see on the knife’s reflection the paradise I wanted.
I inhale my one last breath. (Inhale) 

4/19/15

Fifty Shades of Klaus : Chapter 12

My phone beeps with the incoming message.
Need you to cover for the firm in the art exhibit this coming Friday. Write a critique about it. Submit it as soon as possible.
The message is from an unknown number I didn’t recognize. It’s probably Marcel, or the chief editor. I hide my phone in my purse and take another swing on the bottle of beer in front of me as I watch my best friend dance with her boyfriend. I assume too much from her. Yes, she promised me a celebration later tonight, but she never mentioned not having to invite Kol.
Maybe I’m just really not use to her being in a relationship. This is the first time I’ve seen her be in a serious one, which makes the matter even worst because her first serious one is a vampire. I sigh, taking another swing of alcohol.
This is going to be bad for her. The whole relationship is going to go down the drain — well, that is if he doesn’t drain her first. I love Bonnie, but the concept of vampirism is still so new to me and I find it sickening. They’re monsters, I know. I’ve watched the Twilight movie and Buffy the vampire slayer. The media might try to make others seem noble like how the Cullens are, but that was for mere entertainment.
I know better than to believe that those kinds of vampires exist just because they believe in the greater good. Maybe there are vampires as such that exist, but it’s obviously just because of the recent movies that gave them the idea of it. Those vampires must have such a dire love life that they decide to take on that challenge in hopes of finding their own Bella. I think it makes them seem desperate, not romantic.
“Why aren’t you joining us for a dance?” Bonnie asks, taking the seat opposite mine. I notice her looking down to my bottle of beer, so I push it towards her. She smiles and sips from it. “Thanks.” She and Kol sits side by side together on the seats opposite mine, as I stay the only single girl in the booth.
I give them a small smile, “My latest club escapade isn’t exactly worth the trip down memory lane. Honestly though, I’m fine on my own. Go have fun.”
Kol gives his girl a dopey-eyed look. It made me want to gag, but I let out a little chuckle instead. They look so stupidly in love. I sigh. Perhaps it makes more sense for me to let go of my frustration for their love affair. It’s not entirely that bad. The only matter that gets in the way is my hatred for vampires. Their relationship isn’t really my business. And it seems like Kol really loves her.