"He's
leaving."
My
heart broke, "What do you mean?"
She
shrugged both shoulders, "I mean, he's not staying."
I
blinked twice before comprehending the words that have literally cracked my
heart open.
My
friend was leaving. My secret friend. Maybe it's a good thing, after all, he
does seem pretty ashamed of me. I mean, who does that? He befriends me through
texts and tells me I'm the best, and yet, he never even tried laying an eye
upon me.
"That's
good," I lied and faked a smile, "He's an ass anyway." I sighed.
Ashley
poked me, "Are you sure? Aren't you two friends and all?" her
eyebrows furrowed.
I shook
my head, "We text, yeah, but Ash, he's a freakin' douche. You know I'm a
man-hater. I would never–"
"Yeah,
yeah." She interjected. "I just assumed that you liked him. You know,
you seemed very fond of him when you first told me about him."
I
looked down. Do I like him? Hell yeah, I do! But after I watched him flirt and
text with other girls, including Ash, I completely tuned him out of my life.
But at some point, I keep letting him back in.
"Yeah
well, I thought he was a better guy then. Now, I know who he really is." I
smiled.
She
nodded, "Abi, if you ever need anyone to talk to, I'm here for you. You're
my best friend, don't even try keeping secrets from me!" she chuckled.
I
laughed, but deep inside, I felt broken. I was lying to her just then, because
apparently, I can't tell a soul about my friendship with 'him'. He never
admitted that he was ashamed of me, but when he asked me to keep us a secret, I
think it was pretty clear.
Kolt
was an ass. And as much as I hate to admit, he was still my friend. My friend
whom I was in love with.